I Never Knew….

They say that when you can admit that there is so much that you don’t know that you are really able to begin learning.

I don’t know how to explain exactly how I feel at this moment in time.  It’s a little awkward but I find myself asking mothers if they wished they “knew” more before becoming a mother.

I don’t like to use the expression I would have done it differently but I think I would have done it better.  But, then again how would you know now what you didn’t know unless you did it the way you did it?

Life’s a little strange that way –

I asked a friend of mine, if she felt this way, and I think her description of being kicked in the face accurately describes how I feel.

I found a blog written by an old acquaintence of mine, LettersForLucas.  Her experience as a mom and the circumstances in her Life drastically alter her experience as a mother from mine but I came across an  blog entry entitled I Never Knew and was so thankful that so many mother’s feel this way.

But it got me thinking and I wanted to share some of my OWN.

I NEVER KNEW…

…That laundry never ends (literally)

…That I could get in and out of the car so many times in a day

…I would feel sorry for the family on the plane with the screaming baby

…that organizing play dates is hectic

…that I would think television in the back of the car is a good idea

…that playing outside is not the norm

…that I would need to research so much

…that Target would be my second home

…that a clean house is only possible at 9 pm

…that exercise is essential

…that chaos can be organized

…that I wouldn’t care if you threw up on me in the middle of a crowded restaurant

…that one of my favorite times is having you asleep in my arms

…that I would pay so much for Food

…that planning a family party could trigger anxiety

…that washing the dishes is sometimes therapeutic

…that HomeEconomics is a worthwhile class

…that I could waste so much

…that bugs wouldn’t scare me

…that being dirty meant having fun

…that there really is no “dinner time”

…that it really does take a village to raise a child

…that splitting my attention could be so difficult

…that I could get so frustrated

…that I could love something so much

…that I could feel so much fear

…that letting go is a skill

…that I would change so much

…that I would be tested so often

Please share if you also Never Knew Something after Motherhood…

Live and Learn.  We all Do.

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